calendar was disorganized, how could I say no? Especially when, as a young man, I was eager to please people. Not only was I deprived of my best time due to this lack of organization, but my family was often cheated out of precious hours that I should have given them. And so it continued. Strong people in my world controlled my time better than I did because I had not taken the initiative to command the time before they got to me. This sometimes led to resentment toward them and disrespect toward